and she thinks of him everytime she smiles...

because he's the one who made her s m i l e the most.

and she doesn't want to hide her face anymore.

she's just so tired of watching the normal people pass by and smile at each other... she wants to be one of them, she wants to l a u g h, wants to touch them, would love to just be loved...

getting over
this
was so much easier
than expected.

am i still in like?
do i still want him?
i think so.
i wish things were simple again.

but i feel this transformation
taking hold of me
and my thoughts,
and i give in so easily.
i just want to let it happen
but i have to work with it too
and there is just so much going on right now,
but for once,
i'm not terrified.

scared, yes
worried, yes
longing... yes.

flirtatious glances cast in several directions,
reflective thought and want towards HIM,
wishful thinking
back to when we were just in like
and that was okay.
why did we ever agree to this?
now it's over,
and for some reason i like it less.

sorry for all this confused rambling.  i need a secret xanga again.  i might make a new one.

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frustration
always.
fear
of so many things
always.
anger
at myself
always.

i so need to calm down
about all of this.
but i can't.

my

heart

never

stays

in

one place.

and

i

think........

i don't know.

i think i lied.
i think i'll keep writing here, and the other xanga will just replace my old normal xanga.

^^

i've found i still need to write poems and stuff.  i wrote one last night in my journal... i thought of it in the shower.  imagine that.  but i won't put it on here now-- i gotta pack.

i said i "need" to but i also really WANT to.  i love writing.  i was going to on my new xanga but the font is all caps and that just doesn't work for me.  i know i can change it but i like it for regular entries.  if that makes any sense...